I was told at 17 after dating my first serious boyfriend that nobody would ever love me. He was upset and heartbroken with the fact that I had broken up with him. It was after months of him manipulating and taking advantage of my low self-esteem that I finally started to realize that I was better off without him. Hard to believe that someone as fabulous as myself would have low self-esteem…it was bad. It was real. I played on this facade that life was grand, when at times I just wanted to be loved. I was insecure with my body, being one of the guys, and never fitting in to the pretty girls group; I was broken.
Life had handed me a variety of crushes that noticed me and written me off. Others that just ignored the fact that I even existed. At that point, I had given up hope. I was broken. I was defeated. I didn’t need a man. I didn’t want one. It was around this time that I told myself, I was better off without any guy. This was the moment in my life when I finally started caring about me.
This was a point when I really just let it all go and decided that I could do better on my own. I never thought I would get married and I never really wanted to. It just seemed so cliche and I honestly felt like I would be losing a sense of myself by selling out for a man. Ask my mother, I always thought I would be the type of woman who would live by herself in a house with 7 dogs.
Then I finally met him. He was a guy, a normal guy. He swept me off my feet. He made me love him. His heart was pure and full. The level of comfort that I felt around him was enough for my world to change. I knew that all this time, I was meant to be with him.
That’s all that matters, because history was made.
I am notorious for downloading songs from iTunes single of the weeks. This week leading up to our 6th wedding anniversary, this song played on my mysterious iTunes play list.
“Dear No One” By Tori Kelly
I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don’t gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer toBut sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when its cold Got that young love even when we’re old Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end
I don’t really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I’d love to have a soul mate God will give him to me someday & I know it’ll be worth the wait
So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song
He was my saving grace. The guy who proved that I am pretty, loveable, and worth being treated like a queen. I wouldn’t trade anything in this world for the lifetime I am spending with him. He makes me better and allows me to remain true to myself. I have an identity and he allows it to thrive. He knows that I am stubborn, independent, and sometimes he has his hands full. He understands that I am competitive, ambitious, and driven for greatness.
We go very well together and there is never a dull moment as we journey through life together.
Maybe some women aren’t meant to be tamed. Maybe they need to run free until they find someone just as wild to run with.
A self-proclaimed people expert; Sevi is known best for her vibrant personality and loud attitude. Simply Sevi is geared toward helping millennials navigate adulthood with easy DIYs, relatable advice, and affordable style - all while trying to figure out motherhood.