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Happy Birthday Dad, Issue 1

Before you continue, I have to warn you that if you are just joining this blog you may want to start here. I decided to start a letter series to my dad and write to him each year on his birthday. Not sure why, but it just sort of happened and I’m leaving it all out on the table. My goal has always been to remain authentic in this lifestyle blogging atmosphere and this is a part of it. This is my story, its a huge part of my life. 

Dear Daddy,

It’s been too long and I can’t believe I’m sitting in bed on the eve of what would’ve been your 68th birthday knowing that I won’t be able to hear your voice tomorrow. A lot of emotions are happening right now and I can’t seem to put my finger on them. I can feel my chest tightening up as I write these words and the shock of you actually not being on this earth any longer sinks in.

You always told me to use my voice and you would be proud to know that my blog has become a fun hobby with awesome perks. Remember how I always joked that one day I would be famous?!? Well, I’m not there yet – but I’m not going to let you live that joke down. I’ll be famous and you’ll be the first person that I thank for raising me to be such an extraordinary individual. Speaking of famous, I’m becoming quite the talk around my new job. All of those late nights tinkering around the internet has paid off. The new job at the beat was definitely one of the best moves I’ve ever made. Every day brings a new challenge, but the courage your instilled in me is proving stronger than ever. Thanks for encouraging me to take a leap of faith to apply for this career move. It’s opening so many new doors.

Things haven’t been easy since you passed. Grief really took a toll on me and I had to draw some lines in the sand. I apologize if some of those hurt, but you always understand that no matter what I did it was best for me. Over the last year, I’ve been able to make new friends and realize that a few just aren’t worth the effort. I know you would tell me that it’s ok, it’s a part of life. Over the next few months, I plan on making even more changes in my social dynamics and I sure do wish you were here so that I could bounce some feelings off you. You were always the best at dishing out wisdom when I needed it the most.

No need to worry though, because I’m fine. Honestly, I’m in the best place I’ve ever been in my life. My life is surrounded by people that I love and love me in return. I know you are proud of everything that I’ve accomplished and continue to strive for.

Until we meet again –

Tingy Wop

 

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9 Comments

  • Reply Valery

    So touching to read this. I 10000% believe your pops is smiling down on you, so stinking proud of the woman you are (just like the rest of us are!)

    xoxo

    April 8, 2015 at 7:25 pm
  • Reply Stephanie

    We love you Sevi!! It was just too coincidental that we all came into each other’s lives when we did. Your Dad definitely helped silently guide us all to you, and even though I didn’t have the privilege of knowing him, I thank him for that and for raising the woman I am so proud to call a best friend.

    April 8, 2015 at 7:28 pm
  • Reply Eva Duplan

    Touching and moving… Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us!

    April 8, 2015 at 9:55 pm
  • Reply Vanessa Smith

    Sevi,

    I’ve known you since forever, and not going to lie, I cried reading this. You know our dads had birthdays just two days apart, and celebrating my dad’s birthday made me think about your pops, and the huge rockstar party he is probably throwing in heaven!! You know we all loved us some Mr. David, and I am so proud of the legacy he left in you, in your mom, and the David family. We love you, we pray for you, and we can’t wait until you are rich and famous…. Can I write you a post-dates, second party out of state check, for cash?

    XOXO, Ness

    April 8, 2015 at 10:04 pm
  • Reply Jordan

    I love listening to you tell stories about your dad. I can’t even fathom the emotions of his loss, but like Stephanie said, I will always believe we all came together in the perfect time. At that particular moment, we were all exactly what each other needed. I forever will be thankful for all of the wisdom he instilled in you, to make you the woman you are today. You are one I look to for guidance, wisdom, support, laughter, and the secrets to the perfect instagram posts! I’m lucky to know you, and even more lucky to call you a best friend!

    April 8, 2015 at 10:04 pm
  • Reply Denise

    He is one proud dad, I’m sure of it! You’re beautiful, intelligent, and such a wonderful, positive energy to have around. He absolutely called it– you’re a star! My father was 67 as well when he passed away, and I expected him to live much longer than that (read: forever). I understand your pain and I’m sending warm hugs and healing vibes your way!

    April 9, 2015 at 12:57 pm
  • Reply Lindsay

    Beautifully written. I have no doubt that your dad is smiling down on you from Heaven! So thankful we’ve come to be friends, and that I get to know the beautiful-inside-and-out young woman that this wonferful man raised. Thinking of you today sweet friend!

    April 9, 2015 at 8:52 pm
  • Reply Nan Walvoord

    So proud of you. Your Dad did a great job of instilling so much great wisdom in you. It is a joy to see you blossom and love life. Love you my dear!!

    April 9, 2015 at 10:07 pm
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