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This is a yearly series that I write to honor the memory of my dad. It’s a stream of consciousness that chronicles any emotions that I would share with my daddy if he were still here today.
Happy 69th birthday! I’m not even sure where to start with this year’s letter because in the last year quite a bit has happened. On your last birthday, I was hitting my stride at my new job and had been in grief counseling to deal with all the feelings/emotions I was processing from your loss. It wasn’t easy, but I’ve learned how to cope very well and journal frequently away from this blog about the void of your presence. Believe me when I say that I’m doing splendid.
My job is going great and every day I’m thankful for those words of encouragement that you provided me to take that leap of faith. The coworkers I have are some of the best in the city of Dallas and we all work so hard. If you were here, I would love to share all the crazy crimes we come across. You wouldn’t believe how closely they relate to some of the crime shows we use to watch together.
David and I have a little way we remember you by. Most Friday evenings we get to spend together, we watch Grimm in your honor. The fan base is still loyal and the story continues drawing people back in. You’re the real MVP for getting me hooked (in turn, I reeled David in)! What David doesn’t know is that I’m constantly thinking in the back of my head how much you would enjoy the story arc they have taken with Nick. The best news, it was renewed for a 6th season!
Let’s get serious now.
I won’t lie, I miss you terribly. A part of me is dreading that in just a month it’ll be two years since you left this earth. Two years since I last heard your voice and saw your smile. The pain lingers, but I can say it has become bearable. The people that I’ve chosen to surround myself within the last two years have been so uplifting during my grieving process. They’ve been my shoulders to cry on, my rocks to lean on, and much more each passing day. My only wish is that a few of them would’ve had the chance to know you. The saying “to know you is to love you” couldn’t have been more true in your case.
Each and every passing day, I am reminded that I am lucky to be your daughter. There is not one day that goes by that I am not reminded of your kindness and love. Just so you know, I’m doing my absolute best to surpass the expectations that you set for me at such a young age. Thank you for always believing in me!
Make sure you have Bob Marley play the Redemption Song with you, it was always one of my favorites to hear you strum on your guitar.
Until we meet again –