As this blog is being posted (because I was nifty and scheduled this ish), I am sitting at the mothership in a flurry of meetings.
And after today, I will be enjoying a nice tall glass of wine.
I’ve been alluding to the dust settling at the mothership and last night it finally started. To bring you up to speed and not make this post so cryptic, we have been going through a serious realignment. A few departments were revamped and
quite a few a large number individuals had to apply for all new positions.
It’s always a time of mixed emotions, soul searching, and much much more when drastic changes take place in your career.
My current position eliminated and there was no choice but to take my chances with the rest of my department for a chance to be at the big kids table.
I was forced to question where I wanted to be, at a time when I should’ve been recharging for a new school year. Nerving situations were placed upon individuals without much choice in the matter, to further the mission we are well versed at communicating so well in our positions.
There was no summer break for me. I know I’m an adult with a full time job and I shouldn’t have a summer break. I know I don’t teach, so summer breaks are non-existent. What I’ve appreciated with my current organization was summer was the time to give our customers a break and tie up loose ends (i.e. clean off desk, organize files, etc.). Yes, I had Fridays off and they were glorious! I can also guarantee you that Monday – Thursday were hell this entire summer. I didn’t have time to really prep myself for a new year of forwarding the mission.
My feelings on what has transpired for the last few weeks would best be described in this manner.
I’m there on the ground, sprawled out, with a drink in my hand staring aimlessly at the ceiling thinking where do I go from here?
I can tell you two things for sure (if you’ve liked Ware is the Vodka?!? on FB you’ve seen these):
1. I’m worth much more than many people value me at.
2. Golden opportunities will fall upon me sooner rather than later.
So I’m raising a glass of wine, taking it all in stride, and shooting for the stars. In the past 3 years that I’ve been at the mothership, I’ve thrived and learned this position like the back of my hand. Maybe this is a sign that I need to aim for bigger and better opportunities that will value all that I’m worth in the end.
So here’s to partying on and pushing forward!
P.S. Let’s hope nobody from work finds this and I end up losing the job I just had to reapply for. I’m on a 90 day probationary period y’all!